Beyond Pride #3: True Love
My essays from the last couple of days have discussed attraction to minors, and my fight to overcome that. I want to make clear that my situation now is markedly different than it was when I began this struggle twenty-five years ago. In my teenage years and early twenties, I was overwhelmed by the daily crush of emotions and desires. It threatened to consume me. I felt like I was barely hanging on and any hope of a “normal” life seemed beyond me.
Today, I’m happily married to a wonderful woman who has changed my life for the better in every way imaginable. Additionally, the fear and horror that once dominated my life are gone. In a very real way, I have been set free.
I know that requires some additional explanation. There are several questions that quickly spring to mind: 1) Given my desires, why would I marry a grown woman? 2) Is that marriage a satisfying relationship? 3) Now that I’m married, am I still attracted to minors?
These are all legitimate concerns, so I’m taking time today to answer them.